Give me something to go on.

What is with these spam comments? I get all excited that someone's life is as boring as mine so they decide to read stuff on my blog, and then i click on the comments, and its spam, Spam, SPam, SPAm, SPAM! Like, frick. This is uncalled for.
....yah, thats about all i had to say. Today's been good besides this minor set back due to all the free stuff i recieved.

Song of the moment: Running Out of Time by Hot Hot Heat

What is that? Water? Get in it!

Had a movie date with Arwinny this evening. We ate kd, drank tea and watched All the Real Girls. It was a great movie, really insightful, although a little too close to reality for me at times. You should watch it.

I like humor.

Song of the moment: Striptease by Hawksley Workman

Mr. Seipp, where for art thou?

We've had a lot of grammar homework in English.

Jessi and Nicole made me do it.

10 FAVORITES
Favorite Color: pink and red

Favorite Food: uuhh...jello. i friggin LOVE jello.
Favorite Band: won't ever be able to choose. don't ask again.

Favorite Song: see above.

Favorite Movie: gardenstate

Favorite Sport: dancing. or shopping. yes, shopping is a sport. either you can play, or you can't. i can play my friend.
Favorite Season: one that doesn't include -50 weather

Favorite Day Of the Week: saturday

Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: raspberry gelato

Favorite Time of Day: 4:30am

9 CURRENTS
Current Mood: calm.

Current Taste: coca-cola
Current Clothes: longsleeve black dub shirt, blue bra, $15 jeans, black underwear, white and gray socks, hot black and white allstar runners.
Current Toenail Color: toe

Current Time: 1:47pm

Current Surroundings: in a computer lab at school

Current Thoughts: the blog party tonight is gonna rock.

8 FIRSTS
First Best Friend: some Courtney girl in grade 1
First Kiss: Graham Sanders, gr.9
First Screen Name: i don't remember
First Pet: uumm...was it the frogs? I think it was. We had them until we tried to race them and were prodding them with sticks. My mother set them free after that.

First Piercing: ears
First Crush: Jason Mechern (sp?) in kindergarden. Or eyelashes from summers in Penticton. I don't remember which was first.

First Music: first cd i ever owned was U2 War. Best cd ever.

First Car: don't have one yet.


7 LASTS
Last Cigarette: does playing kiss and blow count? cuz thats like....5 months ago??

Last Drink: currently coca-cola. subway doesn't have pepsi. laaaaaaaaaamesauce.

Last Car Ride: to subway in Sean's car. i'm the only known human being that can get in the passenger door. boo yah.

Last Kiss: ...saturday i think. no wait....yah.

Last Time you said I love you and meant it: proably today. or last night actually. i don't know, i love everyone.

Last Phone Call: uumm.....trev last night.

Last CD played: currently the epitaph summer sampler that i got from warped. before that, Hawksley Workman (last night we were) the delicious wolves.


6 HAVE YOU EVER
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Guy/Girl Friends?: yah. good thing i'm friends with all my ex's.

Have You Ever Broken the Law: yah man.

Have You Ever gone Sky diving: not yet. stupid ray and his stupid truth or dare game. oh wait, that game was my idea....crap.

Have You Ever gone Skinny Dipping: hahaha is that even a question?

Have You Ever Been on TV: i was in a commercial once. yah thats right. i'm famous.

Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: ...yah....stupid Hales and her "Have another drink Nikay!"


5 THINGS
1 Thing You're Wearing: pink no wait...black underwear. i had to check.

1 Thing You've Done Today: recieved a welcome gift from my locker.

1 Thing You Can Hear Right Now: Eagles become Vultures - Converge

1 Thing You Can't Live Without: Jenna. she keeps my healthily insane.

1 Thing You Do When You're Bored: dance. i'm awkward. or surf the net and blog. i am such a nerd. or stalk people. i'm also a stalker. a nerdy stalker. a nerdy, awkward, stalker.


4 PLACES YOU'VE BEEN TODAY
1. Education, room 1036

2. the plastic chairs in upper place riel

3. subway

4. Education, room 3134 (currently)



3 PEOPLE THAT YOU LOVE
1. all of my friends

2. all of my friends

3. all of my friends

2 CHOICES
1.black or white: black, i get white dirty.

2. hot or cold: Hot, i have bad circulation

1 THING YOU WANT TO DO
Go on an expedition.

Song of the moment: Jealous of your Cigarette by Hawksley Workman

How am i not myself?

I stare in the mirror and i am no longer ashamed at who i see looking back at me. I see myself. And i accept who i am. All the horrible, ugly truth of it.
I accept who i am.

Song of the moment: Untitled by Sigur Ros

Have you ever transcended time and space? Yes. Wait no. Well time not space. Wait, what does that mean?

I wrote this a couple nights ago at about 5am when i felt the sudden urge to blog, but didn't want to get out of bed.

A caged bird can still sing. I just need to find out how to feel free in my surroundings. A caged bird can still fly when its let out. What if i fly to far? But the real question is not that, but how far is too far? I just want to be free... i feel trapped. Tied down. No escape. I can't breathe. I try to swim to the surface, to break the wake, but i'm stuck treading below, salvation just beyond my grasp. I want to be saved, and yet, i refuse to take the outstretched hand. I've lost my grasp on reality. I never had a grasp on reality. I think i'm lost. I see the path that i want to take in front of me, the path i've already taken behind me, and yet i follow the butterfly off of both and let my feet lead me to... i don't know where. Ignorance is bliss. Freedom is bliss. Nakedness is bliss. I run through the sunflowers without a general direction or a destination. My eyes are closed and my feet lead. My stride catches and i pause uncertainly, but then i continue on without a backward glance. I want to go. I have reached the surface. Broken through. Sunlight streams over my face, and i dive back down. I don't want to breathe yet. I'm not ready to breathe yet.
Yah, i don't know it doesn't make much sense, but it was 5am.


The earth is an infinite bliss. The center is everywhere, but the circumfrance is nowhere.

Song of the moment: Welcome Home by Coheed and Cambria

Random bruises are like random thoughts. Deeply intruiging.

Hey friends. Sorry its been a while but all of this last minute school junk is keeping me on my toes. I finally have a moments piece sitting here in the ed computer room, so i thought i would blog. I love blogging in random places. So because Sask Learning fucked up, i have until tomorrow to get my transcript sent to the U of S so they believe that i infact, graduated highschool. How fun is that? Viewing myself as a "highschool dropout" of sorts has given me a new perspective. Its gotten me thinking what i would do if the past four years all of a sudden didn't exist. Well, i would proably still be en route to Calgary most likely seeing as they would not let me in here. I have been wondering a lot if i made the right decision staying here. Sure schools an alright pastime, and i do love being on campus...but could i be doing something equally as exciting and good in Calgary? What if there was unexpected opportunities that i have turned a blind eye to without a second thought? It feels like my life is slipping away between my finger tips. I desperately want to gain control of it again. But then i realize, what control did i ever hold over my life? That was a false sense of control, i've never really been in control of my life. I guess i'm still just trying to settle into my current situation since it is so foreign to me. I hope i can ease into it soon...

Song of the moment: You you you you you by The 6ths

On the other hand, you have different fingers. - Jack Handey

Wow. I haven't been here in a looong time, i apologize to all who care to read my random ramblings.

Well for updates on my life, i am no longer relocating to Calgary. Instead, i am now a full time student at the U of S in the College of Music as of September 7th. Exciting? I find it so. But that is because i am a nerd and the idea of wandering around campus makes me very happy inside. Perhaps i will someday have in my possession the amount of money that equals the privilege of owning ones very own digital camera, and i can go around and try and capture some of this joy. But until then, you all will have to wait, with unabaited breath of course due to the fact that much more talented candidates already posses such luxuries.

Positions in my collection of people are slowly but surely filling up. I have no acquired a husband, a boyfriend, a woman, and two girlfriends. Apply within.

Hmm, well i can't think of anything else that is new and exciting in my life except that some very dear friends of mine are relocating themselves to a bigger city in hopes of making something of themselves. This is neither new or exciting for myself, but i can still recognize that it is both for them, and i am ecstatic that they have this opportunity and are taking it. We only live once, and i wish them all the best, although i know they don't need it. I just hope that they won't forget me and that they will miss my presence perhaps once or twice. (I hope not as much as i will miss theirs, for i do not wish that sort of despair on any human being.) But i am going to stop talking about this because i can no longer see the screen due to the steady flow of liquid leaking from my eyes. (Stop watching my eyes pee you bastards)

Song(s) of the moment: Swerdcooledit by Trev Tarhos
I'm leaving on a Jet Plane by Aerosmith
I'll Let You Go by Carolyn Dawn Johnson
Fly by Celine Dion
International You Day by No Use For a Name
Deep-end fluxuations? by Cedars Bloom (in my head)