Drink, drank, drunk.

Just a few photo's from my first night out on the town by myself in my new home, E-town. Quite a step forward for myself i think, to leave the safety net of my Saskaspoonian friends and step out into the unknown. I hope that this was only the first step in what is to be my new found independence here.

Song of the moment: The Beautiful People - Marilyn Manson

Lost in the Translation.

My world has been sent reeling. I feel like Alice when she falls through the rabbit hole, or Johnny Depp in Fear & Loathing when he goes on a bad trip. Except that i am completely sober and this is my life.
This sort of feeling seems to reoccur quite frequently when the family in question is brought up, so you'd think i'd be used to it by now, but how can you possibly get used to the feeling that your stomach has dropped out of your body and your blood has run cold and all thoughts have left your head and the electric signals are still firing, but nothing is connecting.
"We have just lost cabin pressure." I can't seem to get my body to function when i am feeling helpless. Not being able to help a person in a particular situation leaves me feeling desolute and useless. But i got myself out of bed today, so thats a start i guess.
I'm dressed, but i don't know what i'm wearing. I'm eating something, but i don't know what it is. I'm typing, but i don't know what i'm saying. I'm looking straight ahead of me, but all i see is her. And him. And how i've let him down.
I'm so sorry.

Song of the moment: Ave Maria

To infinty...and beyond!

I feel the need to blog...but i have nothing to say. So i've decided to redirect your eager minds to a friends blog. He's the shiit and usually has a fair amount of interesting things to say.

http://everyoneimperfect.blogspot.com/

p.s. he's the handsom chap on the left, folks, escorting my cap'n;)

Song of the moment: Ha ha - Mates of State